The Sun Goes down song by Lil Nas X sends a very important message about suicide, self-hate, and bullying. In the chorus he says “Don’t wanna lie, I don’t want a life, send me a gun, and I’ll see the sun, I’d rather run away.”
Furthermore, he also says “since ten I was feeling lonely, had friends, but they was picking on me”. The LGBTQ youth are more likely to be picked on than their straight counterparts.
The CDC’s data show 21% to 22% of gay and lesbian youth have attempted suicide. 29% of gay, lesbian youth and 31% of bisexual youth have been bullied at school, compared to only 17% of straight youth. Bullying can lead to depression, traumatization, rejection, and isolation that can cause suicidal behavior and thoughts. Unfortunately there is no federal law to stop bullying. So that means bullying is not illegal.
Lil Nas also hit on self-hate. In the video Sun Goes Down he has blonde hair, and he asked himself why are his lips so big and was he to dark? A lot of Black people have experienced self-hate. Hating their hair, their skin color, and their Black features (Broad nose, Thick lips). Because of racism, prejudice, and discrimination a lot of black people experience low self-esteem and self-hate.
Malcolm X asked in a speech in 1962 “Who taught you to hate the color of your skin? Who taught you to hate the texture of your hair? Who taught you to hate the shape of your nose and the shape of your lips?
In 2021 still Black people suffer from low evaluation of themselves. In 1940 there was a Black and White Doll test evaluation. Unfortunately, most of the Black kids thought the white doll was prettier. Sadly, other races also perceive whites to be prettier and more approachable. Images of Black people as thugs, ugly, criminals have been exploited by main stream media for centuries. The images of Black people are stigmatized. Media has presented the representation of blackness as negative.
Suspending Black kids from school because of their cultural hair differences is saying Black hair is bad! Instances like this happened to De’Andre Arnold who made an appearance on The Ellen DeGeneres Show. He was suspended from school because of his locs. Because Arnold did not cut his locs he was banned from his high school graduation and prom. Situations like this is blatant oppressive racism. Moreover, not hiring someone because of their hair is discrimination, is this is how you form self-hate in the Black community.
Do we really live in a post racial era? The word racism is so cliché. The whole “I don’t see color” rhetoric is turning a blind eye to a real problem in America. You often hear “America is not racist, we had a Black president.” What does one situation have to do with another situation? We all live separate lives and experience different affairs. Racism is still a huge problem in America, and we cannot continue to turn a blind eye.
Lil X Nas was brave to touch on the issue of bullying, suicide and self-hate. Issues like these need more awareness. Love yourself because you are perfect. Lastly, when you see bullying, stop it and report it asap.